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[14 Dec 2010|04:04pm]
I wish I understood what triggers these death-defying moodswings. They always come along at the worst moment and drain the life energy out of me in their wake. I feel like I've been like this as long as I've existed... why I never feel like I can commit to any creative task with any degree of surety. I could have the wind burned out of my sails at any moment.
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On the other hand... [02 Dec 2010|04:24pm]
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This is the point... [02 Dec 2010|03:00pm]
...where our intrepid hero gets to be the douchebag that goes back to his old friends, at the end of a particularly demanding year-long relationship, and says "hey, yeah, I know I disappeared for a year... we're still cool, yeah? Yeah?"

Yeah. That guy.

Doesn't help that I pretty much made my entire social scene her group of friends and/or the extended family thereof. It was the exact kind of scene that I wanted to be part of, a good-natured bunch of vibrant and creative people. I guess it remains to be seen which of them I get to keep in the divorce. I gravitate towards other peoples' groups. I never seem to be that good at building my own circles. Seems like all of the gangs I've joined over the last ten years or so have all fallen away. Maybe it's a symptom of time or age, everything eventually disintegrates into single units or pairs.

Single unit, again. Restart.
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[25 Oct 2010|09:23am]
Sometimes life seems like it's far less about progress than it is cycles. I can't tell at the moment if they're widening or tightening. Perhaps spiral in shape.

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not to sound all cliche and shit [06 May 2010|09:48am]
My life feels like it's at this weird standstill.

Time, however, seems to be rushing by just fine.

I need to break up the routine a bit. Maybe I should go bowling. I dunno.
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[22 Apr 2010|09:29am]
My brain is trying to kill me again. I need to write more.
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unfortunate public service announcement-- [06 Mar 2010|03:41pm]
It fucks me off that this still happens, but it does--douchebaggery abounds, apparently.

ANOTHER friend of mine (friend of a friend, but who's counting) got her DRINK DRUGGED at a very intimate, cozy-little-scene party at a bar about a block from my house. 'Absolution' at 87 Ludlow, a new-ish old-skool goth party in the neighborhood. ...you'd think that would be a gathering of people that ostensibly know each other, at least through each others' networks of people, and that that might discourage this sort of fuckery. But alas, no.

She's fine, luckily she'd had a friend there that could help her get home safe before she lost total motor control. She'd had one drink, which she'd left alone when she went to dance.

So. To alla y'all, especially the ladies, be CAREful because people are shitheels... don't leave your drink unattended, unless it's in the hands of a real and trusted friend, EVER. If someone you don't/semi know buys you a drink, get it from the bartender directly.

And if you ever see someone putting something into a drink in a bar, report them immediately . And then break a fucking champagne bottle over his head.

that is all. Thanks for listening.
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Fascinating. [21 Jan 2010|10:51pm]
Politics fascinates me. Oftimes annoys me. These days I try not to get too excited about them one way or the other... it's fun, sometimes healthier, to step back a step and look at it as the continuation of the grand chess game that's been going on in this country for more than 200 years. Sure, I've got my personal policy passions and occasional allegiances, and I do believe that there are often quite serious issues at stake. I also believe that whenever intelligent people can partake in reasoned debate, good things can come of it even if the differences between them are severe. Unfortunately the two things that politics often lacks is intelligent people and reasoned debate. But I digress.

Every once in a while something comes along as a major game changer, but I don't think you really see so much of this sort of thing in a lifetime. Today was one of those things. Surprisingly I've heard little report on it among my internetly circle of people, but I think I'm on the mark when I speak of the significance of the event.

Talkin' bout that silly little ruling by El Courto Supremo, that says corporations can spend as MUCH AS THEY WANT to advertise for or against any candidate, any time, any where, whenever. Essentially overturning (in a heated 5-4 conservative win on the court) 100 years of tradition, two solid laws, and two prior Supreme Court cases. ...and it came out of nowhere. A. MA. ZING.

From the Times:

Thursday’s decision, in Citizens United vs. the Federal Election Commission, “is going to flip the existing campaign order on its head,” said Benjamin L. Ginsberg, a Republican campaign lawyer at Patton Boggs who has represented both candidates and outside groups, including Swift Boat Veterans for Truth, formed to oppose Senator John Kerry’s 2004 presidential campaign.

“It will put on steroids the trend that outside groups are increasingly dominating campaigns,” Mr. Ginsberg said. “Candidates lose control of their message. Some of these guys lose control of their whole personalities.”

“Parties will sort of shrink in the relative importance of things,” he added, “and outside groups will take over more of the functions — advertising support, get out the vote — that parties do now.”

Whooeeeeee, doggie. The terrain just changed in a tectonic fashion, and if you blinked you missed it. We're not in Kansas anymore, Frodo.

Cuz, what did American politics need more of? ...oh yeah, money from special interest groups.

“We have got a million we can spend advertising for you or against you—whichever one you want,’ ” a lobbyist can tell lawmakers, said Lawrence M. Noble, a lawyer at Skadden Arps in Washington and former general counsel of the Federal Election Commission.

TV is going to get a lot more annoying, come election time. And politics is gonna get a lot more interesting. And, possibly, irrelevant.

Maybe I'm wrong. Can't help but wonder if we're not standing at one of those "moments in history" moments.

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Military Tragedy [06 Nov 2009|09:18am]
The shooting at Fort Hood is really fucked up and tragic.

And I'm bracing for how the event is going to be twisted and politicized by members at both ends of the spectrum.
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Soapboxin' [02 Nov 2009|02:19pm]
...I dunno why this is such a pet cause of mine, perhaps because it seems to embrace the laws of New Darwinism so thoroughly.

Brits crack down on people who kill while drivin' and textin'. Rightly so!

Don't fuck around with your phones when you're driving, people! Or be a drunk, for that matter. (while driving OR texting, kthx.)

Srsly. Christ.

More better fun Halloween redux to come... !
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[28 Oct 2009|08:59pm]
Big birthday love goin' out to my lady down south, miss satinwhispers.

May all of your wishes come true!!

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pie in the sky [27 Oct 2009|11:37am]
R.I.P., Soupy Sales.

...I can only assume that St. Peter is wiping pie off his face right now.
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dammit! [23 Oct 2009|04:05pm]
Was hoping to go to see the roller derby double-header this Saturday, and DUH--of COURSE it was going to sell out, and I didn't get tix quick enough.

Apparently it's going to be webcasted, but it's not the same as bein' there.

ANYway, anyone have/hear of any extra vacant tickets floating around, do let me know... thx!
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watch your drinks [19 Oct 2009|09:01am]
Was out at a club with a friend, and her drink got drugged. Why, I have no idea--who drugs random drinks?--but this had happened to an old roommate of mine too, and I should have recognized the symptoms. (My friend does not get fall-down drunk after two jack and cokes, in fact she can drink me under the table.) Liquor should not induce sudden and complete loss of motor contol. Hadn't left her drink unattended for very long, either.

ANYway, I got her home and up into her apartment--she could barely walk--and at the time we both thought, for some reason, it was some sudden onset of drunkenness, but had I realized it I wouldn't have left her alone. She kept waking up in random parts of the apartment with no memory of getting there. And had no memory whatsoever of the night, but was fucked up residually all day.

So BE CAREFUL, kids! People do fucked-up stuff. Keep your drinks close, and if a stranger buys you one, get it straight from the bartender.

I swear. People fuckin' suck. ...keep an eye out for razors in your candy corn.
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lunchtime braindump, sans edit. [28 Sep 2009|10:09pm]
Odd habits.

I've always been a daydreamer. Sort of. My mind is always moving, going, searching, building. Not often focused on what's at hand. This sort of began manifesting itself right around senior year of high school; I think I just thought I'd had a case of senioritis. But it turns out that it was a more permanent condition. I made a sign for myself that looked a little like a movie frame from the 50's that said "focus".

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[11 Sep 2009|01:10pm]
--hm? Oh, hello again, September 11th. Right on time.

Hey, terrorists. WE'RE STILL HERE. Fuck you.

Love, New York.

Respect to those who suffered losses on that day.

really? [09 Sep 2009|06:23am]
...texting while driving? Do people really DO that?

It keeps coming up in the Times as a topic. I assume it must be a reasonably large facet of reality for that to happen. Sounds bizarrely asinine to me, though. Like, a good idea in the way that playing Tetris while driving is a good idea. (Granted, I haven't driven in a long time, nor played Tetris in a LONGer time, so what the hell do *I* know, but still.)

Just 'cos of that whole, I dunno, car being a fast-moving large chunk of steel thing. And also that there are asshole urban pedestrians like myself in the world.


It's getting light out. I need some fucking sleep.
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PSA [04 Sep 2009|05:26pm]
Some ask me, they say, "Russ--where do you get your AWESOME fly dance moves?"

Well, the answer is: here.

(Yeah I know half of you prolly already seen this. Just sayin'. The secret is out.)

And then to bolster my mad skillz, I review this.

And that pretty much sums it up.
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damn straight, Brooklyn-style [31 Aug 2009|01:36pm]
This guy is my new hero:


“If you are going to take away someone’s house, everything should be legal and correct,” he said. “I’m a strange guy — I don’t want to put a family on the street unless it’s legitimate.”


“To the extent that judges examine these papers, they find exactly the same errors that Judge Schack does,” said Katherine M. Porter, a visiting professor at the School of Law at the University of California, Berkeley, and a national expert in consumer credit law. “His rulings are hardly revolutionary; it’s unusual only because we so rarely hold large corporations to the rules.”

Yep. Fuck 'em.
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